a bit of wisdom from an unlikely source a few days ago:

"i'm a writer, i have to write; i'm a poet, therefore i must write."  or something like that...i definitely paraphrased.

anyway, the point, i guess, is that i am somewhat of a writer too...definitely not a poet, but i write, i enjoy writing, and it's also good for me, helps me to think about and sort through all the things that go on in my heart and my mind; things that i've just been shoving to the side for the longest time.  so with that, i think i will begin using my xanga again as a place to put my "stuff" down on "paper".

here goes nothing...

man...i was gonna write about what an awesome day today was, but then it turned out to be not so awesome, so...i will tell about earlier in the day later.  but, i CAN say that God is awesome.  the title could have very easily been "Two Brothers Killed In Car Accident on 101 in Menlo Park."  here's why:

so after the concert in San Jose, i went to pickup my brother who was at a friend's house, five blocks away.  as we got on the 280, my brother noticed that i was kinda running low on gas so he commented.  after i asked if he knew any cheap gas stations around, he suggested we go to the Chevron on Lawrence Expressway.  so we go there, get gas, and then get on 101 and head home.  so we're driving along on 101 with my cruise control at 55mph around Palo Alto, when i hear this weird kinda screeching noise.  i turn to my left and see a car slide against the center divide.  when he comes away from the center divide, i'm like oh crap, and my brother's saying, better get away, so i slam on the gas to try and get out of the way, but not in time.  he hits the back of my car, causing me to fishtail and lose control of my car.  i ended up slamming into the center divide as well, before spinning out and ending up facing oncoming traffic in the middle of the freeway.

usually when something like this happens, you call 911 and it takes a little while for CHP to dispatch a car out.  and then they radio for a tow truck and that can take a while.  so here's where God comes in:

not 30 seconds later, i see police lights and a CHP car pulls up.  the officer gets out and comes to see if i can move the car to the side of the road.  i tell him the car's not moving, so he goes and sets up flares quick-style and then comes to check on us.  not two minutes later, a tow truck shows up, the officer tells us to get out of the car and wait on the shoulder.  we do and when i look back at my car, i see my rear bumper hanging by a thread, and my left rear tire nowhere to be found.

i'll end this post here by saying that my brother and i are largely alright, physically...maybe i'll write more later, but not before i ask you guys to pray for me and this whole situation, thank him for watching over us.  it's funny, everybody mentioned, "you guys were wearing your seatbelts, huh?"  i guess it was a pretty bad accident...

t h e l e t t e r A.

Are you available?: yeah.
What is your age?: twenty five forever
What annoys you?: bad drivers, AKA women drivers, i mean...uhm...yeah

t h e l e t t e r B.

Do you know anyone named Billy?: well, i met a guy named billy once...does that count?
When is your birthday?: october fifth
Who is your best friend?: sherwin & victor

t h e l e t t e r C.

What's your favorite candy?: gummy worms and anything that will change the color of your mouth
When was the last time you cried?: NEVER!

t h e l e t t e r D.

Do you daydream?: yes.
What's your favorite kind of dog?: golden retriever
What day of the week is it?: sunday/monday


t h e l e t t e r E.

How do you like your eggs?: sunny side up
Have you ever been in the emergency room?: yes.
What's the easiest thing ever to do?: breath. lolx

t h e l e t t e r F.

Have you ever flown in a plane? yes.
Do you use fly swatters?: yea
Have you ever used a foghorn?: no

t h e l e t t e r G.

Do you chew gum?: yea.
Are you a giver or a taker?: more of a giver, i'd say
Do you like gummy candies?: yep...the worms

t h e l e t t e r H.

How are you?: aight i guess...too busy
What's your height?: five eleven
What color is your hair?: black

t h e l e t t e r I.

What's your favorite ice cream?: chocolate chip cookie dough and cookies & cream
Have you ever ice skated?: yes

t h e l e t t e r J.

What's your favorite jelly bean? juicy pear, green apple
Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke?: lol yes.
Do you wear jewelry?: one earring, left ear

t h e l e t t e r K.

Who do you want to kill?: i'd tell you...but they i'd hafta kill YOU
Do you want kids:yep///at least four
Where did you have kindergarten?: i skipped kindergarten...went straight to first grade...im such a smartie


t h e l e t t e r L.

Are you laid back?: pretty laid back
Do you lie?: every once in a while

t h e l e t t e r M.

What's your favorite movie?: Matrix, Matrix Reloaded, Rush Hour, Rush Hour 2, Enemy Of The State, A Walk To Remember, Shawshank Redemption, Ocean's Eleven, Usual Suspects, Rounders
Do you still watch Disney movies?: yes.
Do you like mangos?: chyeah, they purportedly help you "grow"

t h e l e t t e r N.

Do you have a nickname?: speedy
Whats your favorite number?: seven and eight
Do you prefer night over day?: yeah, im a total nightowl

t h e l e t t e r O.

Are you an only child?: nope
Do you wish this was over?: not yet

t h e l e t t e r P.

What one fear are you most paranoid about?: that i will die alone

t h e l e t t e r Q.

Are you quick to judge people?: i try not to be

t h e l e t t e r R.

Do you think you're always right?: yep
Do you watch reality TV?: not really
What's a good reason to cry?: nothing

t h e l e t t e r S.

Do you prefer sun or rain?: both
Do you like snow?: yep
What's your favorite season?: spring n summer kuz the weather's HOT!!

t h e l e t t e r T.

What time is it?: one eleven
What time did you wake up? seven
When was the last time you slept in a tent?: camping trip a few years back

t h e l e t t e r U.

What is your favorite kind of underwear?: the absent or missing kind
Can you ride a unicycle?: never tried

t h e l e t t e r V.

What’s the worst veggie?: eggplant
Where do you want to go on vacation?:somewhere tropical

t h e l e t t e r W.

What's your worst habit?: being late, not being able to wake up early
Where do you live?: san francisco.

t h e l e t t e r X.

Have you ever had an x-ray?: yes
Have you seen the x-games?: yep
Do you own a xylophone?: uhm...no

t h e l e t t e r Y.

Do you like the color yellow?: not really.
What year were you born in?: ???????

t h e l e t t e r Z.

Do you believe in the zodiac? yah.
What's your favorite zoo animal?: cheetahs...they're super fast!